{ Set them free.

♥ not your ordinary princess .

I've been told I'm evil and I'm LOVING it

I am sarcastic, pessimistic, realistic, cynical, opinionated, a little idealistic(when I'm in the mood) but really I am so SWEET, honey has nothing on me =)
Stalkerish tendencies ><
Vicious without Provocation:P
Violent without warning
Introverted , dig the layers
Loving, compassionate, easily jealous, possessive
hugs AND kisses <3

♥ be heard .

leave comments, they make me happy

♥ they happened .

memories:laughter, tears, crap

February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008

♥ People .

they who have walked with me

natnat~♥
jiajia~♥
sara
sammie
Xiao-ey Xiao-ey
Yi Lynn
Krammy
deborah
christine
othilia
Zheng Hwuang
Jia Hoong
andy
ching shen
chewy
chicky
I Digress

♥ credits .

thankyouverymuch

Designer: 01 02
Image: 03
Hosts: 04 05 06
Brushes: 07 08 09 10
Fonts: 11

♥ reading material .

inspire

Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
Anna KArenina - Leo Tolstoy
War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
Love in the time of cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Angela's Ashes - Frank McCourt
Shirley - Charlotte Bronte
Vilette - Charlotte Bronte
Northanger Abbey - Jane Austen
Mansfield Park - Jane Austen
Emma - Jane Austen
The catcher in the rye - J.D Salinger
Atonement - Ian McEwan
Catch-22 - Joseph Heller
The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
A Tale of Two cities - Charles Dickens
To Kill a mockingbird - Harper Lee
Animal Farm - George Orwell
All the King's men - Robert Penn Warren
As I lay Dying - William Faulkner
The Golden Notebook - Doris Lessing
The Portrait of a Lady - Henry James
East of Eden- John Steinback
Far From the Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
A Handful of Dust - Evelyn Waugh
Light in August - William Faulkner
The Nine Tailors - Dorothy Sayers
A Passage to India - E.M. Forster
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young man - James Joyce
A Room with a View - E.M. Forster
Sons and Lovers - D. H. Lawrence
Women in Love -D.H. Lawrence
Lady Chatterley's Lover - D.H.Lawrence
The Sound and the fury - William Faulkner
Mrs. Dalloway - Virginia Woolf
To The lighthouse - Virginia Woolf
Orlando - Virginia Woolf
The Waves - Virginia Woolf
Between the Acts - Virginia Woolf
The Sun also rises - Ernest Hemmingway
A Farewell to Arms - Ernest Hemmingway
Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
The Bridge of San Luis Rey - Thornton Wilder
The member of the wedding - Carson McCullers
The Prince and the Pauper - Mark Twain
A Separate Peace - John knowles
Stardust - Neil Gaiman
The joy luck club - Amy tan
Liars in love - Richard Yates
Eleven Kinds of Loneliness - Richard Yates
Young Hearts Crying - Richard Yates
The Woman in white - Wilkie Collins
Middlemarch - George Eliot
Tom Jones - Henry Fielding
Lord of the Flies - William Golding
Speak - Laurie Hause Anderson

Jul 16, 2008

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Hello my lovelies, I am about 10 days early but I have chosen my new blog. =)

Paper hearts♥ and Plastic Flowers

thats the official one at least.
if you knew me at all, you'd know that I don't deal well with decisions. Thus, the other one's serving a different purpose.

Jul 14, 2008

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I got dailymotion working for wordpress....Wp is looking up. =)

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It is official...I cannot ever ever ever step into a bookstore anymore...EVER

I really like Vintage Publications because the covers look very nice, the price is reasonable and the print is quite pleasant to the eyes.
Anyway, my mommy was with me so she paid for my books. I am behind on my book of last week though, Charles Dickens' 'Great Expectations'. Must finish it by Tomorrow.

Anyway ~~I bought~~ mommy bought

The woman in White //Wilkie Collins
Mrs Dalloway // Virginia Woolf
Crime and Punishment // Fyodor Dostoevsky
Tess of D'Ubervilles( I found the Vintage cover) // Thomas Hardy
Anna Karenina // Leo Tolstoy

I did see another bunch that I wanted like 'Eleven kinds of loneliness", "The Sound and the Fury", " As I lay Dying" , "Catcher in the Rye" etc...bunches and bunches..meh

CHOCOLATE LOUNGE OPENED IN OU...><
they have CHOCOLATE...duh
but they also have fondue
and drinks
and pastries

think starbucks...chocolate starbucks
Their fraps are about 12.90 a cup and are sinfully delicious...the strength of chocolate is positively sinful...seriously...WE go eat chocolate someday?? Yes yes?

btw, I tried their ice chocolate. Its a bit sweet for my taste...but the chocolatey chocolatey goodness still lingers...mmmmmmm

Jul 13, 2008

Video test and protected posts { freed at 9:43 PM

I just video tested both LJ and WP.
Okay.
Both of them minorly irritate me because I cannot just copy paste the embed code as per blogspot.

WP is annoying the shit outta me with its video posting methods. And I can't seem to get dailymotion to work with it.

LJ, on the other hand works with both youtube and dailymotion but somehow or rather( I think its the layout) that makes the videos go all the way to the bottom of the page
WHICH IS NOT PRETTY.
NOT NOT NOT PRETTY.

I don't like that LJ doesn't have a password protect function. btw, the protected post in WP is just a test.

and I do post A LOT of videos...as you might have noticed.
I'm irritated as hell now...gar..

somehow I feel blogspot is a good blog tool...HOWEVER....it looks less gaya than the rest...and I feel like being neater.

edit:
LJ suddenly loves me...and video posting is not a problem anymore...>< SO far, LJ posting looks more me...WP posting looks neater... LJ has prettier layout...but limited sidebar( but I'll manage...I think)
Wordpress has limited posting options...NO COLOUR ON WORDS..HELLO...D: and video posting is VERY VERY irksome on WP
I like that WP has the hover of name and comment shows up thing
I like that WP has protected posts(so I can taunt :P I kid) But I guess I will make do with private posting too?
I really like the pages function on WP...Its neater and there's more space for things.
I'm leaning towards LJ at the moment because it looks prettier...for normal posting...but WP has more space for more stuffies...the pages are lovely...I LOVE the pages...
NGH...14 days to go. o.O

I just found the colour on WP...the kitchen sink..helpful...D:

{ freed at 5:40 PM

" Its all coming back, its all coming back to me now. There were moments of gold..."

My daddy is either indulging in his music collection or testing out new speakers because Celine Dion has been playing all day long.

" 'Cause I'm your LAAADEEEYYY, and you are my MAAAN"

yeah...okay...
Article pictures...urgh...

Jul 12, 2008

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I've written both the articles already. I think, they're slightly over 500 words...AISH.But thats what editors are for. Now..picture pictures. I have these massive concepts in my head. The problem is I neither have the equipment nor the manpower to execute them. meh. I'll figure something out.

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It all went downhill when it began. I finally understand what was happening when I look back at all the old posts in this blog. IN other words, it wasn't mutual as seeming as it might have been. But yes, never mind about that.

my birthday resolution: Let the dying die in peace.

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Lately I'm very dispassionate. I know that I generally never had much passion to begin with but I feel slummed. I don't know whether the lack of passion stems from jadedness or maturity because I feel less inclined to certain things.

I realize I have a problem saying 'No' sometimes. When daddy was pushing on to me some old books of condensed classics, I found it very hard to refuse because I'd much rather read the original, full versions. I mean, I was flipping through one and I found the canterbury tales. And it was all in modern english. So I flipped to find NPT and guess what....there was no NPT. There was the prologue but no NPT. In NPT's place, there was a shot summary of the tale. I felt insulted because it appeared like they undermined NPT and we all know that NPT has more depth than they give it credit for. And really, if you do want to major in literature, you have to read the original, unedited, uncut versions. So I took one and brought it home. just to please my father. Sigh. Basically my point is, I didn't want to decline because he seemed to passionate about it.

Jul 11, 2008

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people rant a lot...are they so unsatisfied with life? or do they just want attention? or do they just like complaining for attention? I'll just leave it at the freedom to express dislike and discontent.

but anyway~
Went for high school gathering
Nothing much to say about that. I like italiannies' cheesecake. 15/18 were in attendance and one extra*ehem* but yes, that is about it. Not entirely enthusiastic about such gatherings. YES Ching Shen, my heart was absolutely NOT there. AT ALL. Are you happy? :D (note, you DO know what sarcasm is right?)
Note to self, do NOT wear 3-inch heels to gatherings. Unless it is at a restaurant and there are no other places to venture forth. Kaki sakit but I LOVE my shoes. I feel like plunging my feet into a swimming pool.

There's this dress in BCBG Maxazria that I want to get. More like a bunch of dresses that I want to get but the thought of spending about 1k for a dress makes my throat close up and my stomach tighten. I mean 400 is reasonable, 600 is a bit stiff but still manageable, 800 is lets think about it really hard before we blow cold hard cash but a thousand plus, is painful, really painful. MEH.

Aish. My darling Natnat is going away~ I will never see her again. She is gone forever and ever and ever~
I kid. I will miss you. Seriously. Brave Canberra and tell me all about it so I know what to expect. =)

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I'm in between wordpress and LJ at the moment.
Wordpress looks VERY professional and what not but limited layouts and there isn't a nice grey one. Still VERY gaya though. And they have that pages function which is very useful if I want to say, post my booklist or something like that. And the sidebar is not so restricted? Wordpress has this nice function where you hover over a contact's name and you can put a comment in. I really really really LIKE that.

LJ on the other hand, is pretty, like seriously pretty and I AM just saying this because I found this layout that I am absolutely in love with. Pink/grey. My favourite colour combination. LJ cuts for neatening.

Wordpress password protected posts but LJ has private posting too. Both of which blogspot doesn't have. Eliminates the need for like three blogs, 2 private><
Can't I have both...seriously..
aish...and I have pictures due for articles. And I'm suddenly not feeling the articles...Will rewrite them.
I think wordpress is winning lah. But I can't stop staring at my LJ layout. sigh.

edit: OMG I can just link my pages to the sidebar...now to find a pretty header...><

meh... okay my lovelies. Look at them and help me. I really really like the LJ layout. and since I'm really driven by aesthetic value(hello, I bought a Vaio, what other reason if not pretty), I'd say LJ is prettier but wordpress is more practical?
LJ
Wordpress

Jul 10, 2008

I heard me from you. thank you =) { freed at 4:52 PM

Years ago, I told him
"Time will heal all wounds. Just let it go. It takes time."

Last night, or rather this morning, he told me
"Its not worth it. Just take some time out and let your heart recover. It takes time."

Sometimes I hate giving out advice that people can throw back in my face. But its good advice, I'll admit and not just because I gave it. I guess I should listen to myself sometimes. But I'm glad to have people to remind me of my words. There's a certain different impact when your own words resound in your head. Its like I didn't listen to myself speak when I said them and suddenly, just out of nowhere, in a random moment, they make sense.

on a side note, I'm feeling a bit suffocated by this blog. Feels too cluttered and there's too much nostalgia in it. Probably changing soon.

Shuffle is not reliable { freed at 2:26 AM

is bored. So lets do a meme whilst I can't sleep.

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to every question.
4. With the answers, comment on how it relates to the question.

1. How am I feeling today?
I Have You to Thank
So I guess I am thankful. Particularly thankful to you and you and you. =)

2. Will I get far in life?
Truly, Madly Deeply
I guess truly, I'll get far, I'll be mad along the way and I'll be deep about it.

3. How do my friends see me?
Strange and Beautiful
really? Strange?? I knew I was odd...

4. Will I get married?
Infatuation
Gosh...that means I'll never find real love. is sad. I guess infatuation is better than nothing.

5. What is my best friend(s) theme song?
Celebration
Uhm...true to some extent. Happy birthday in advance ~!

6. What is the story of my life?
The World I know
no comment. I have nothing to say.

7. What was high school like?
Some Kind of miracle
Hardly.

8. What's in store for this weekend?
Rehab
WOW...I never knew I was a druggie or an alcoholic. But if we're talking emotional rehabilitation, probably, yeah.

9. How is my life going?
How to save a Life
Am I supposed to be saving my life or someone else's...?

10. How can I get ahead in life?
Breathe
Clearly....If I'm not breathing I'm dead. But I guess some things are not worth stressing about so breathing helps.

11. What’s the best thing about your friends?
Oh star
uhm...they light up my life :D Love you guys, you know that right?

12. What song will they play at my funeral?
Unbelievable
SO, its unbelievable that I died? Or unbelievable as to the cause of death?

13. How does the world see me?
Right Now
Right now...I have no idea...

14. Do people secretly lust for me?
Love me like that
ummmm....yeah...okay....

15. How can I make myself happy?
If I never See your face again
OMG...this is a sign XD

16. What should I do with my life?
My Redeemer Lives
alright. give God more of me =)

17. Will I ever have children?
Can't Behave
Does it mean that I can't behave and thus have no children or doesn't it mean my children can't behave?

18. What would you strip to?
Rock Show
I would strip at a ROCK SHOW? don't think I'd strip to anything.

19. What does your mom think about you?
Everybody wants to be a cat
My Mom doesn't like cats...so...this doesn't apply...unles my mom doesn't love me which is nonsense

20. What is your deep, dark secret?
Its Alright
So its alright that I have secets? Not like anybody would know and not like I need their approval to keep secrets. psshhh

21. What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?
Monday
So...s/he likes mondays or hates them.

22. What is your personality like?
Freak out
I have been known to lose my cool at times. More often than I should.

23. What song will be played at your wedding?
I don't want to be
I'm hoping that I do want to be married and I don't have to pretend to be someone I'm not by that time.

24. Your overall theme song?
For You I will (Confidence)
hmm...thats not too bad. If only there was a 'you' for me to will for. someday=)

Jul 9, 2008

tap on my window, knock on my door, I wanna make you feel beautiful { freed at 5:37 PM

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay a while